Hey, I'm back again. The busyness of school has been keeping me down, as has a good bit of writers block. Unless my reader demographic has grown substantially all of you know that I ended my most recent relationship between the last post and this one. That is partially where the writers block came from, I easily get an idea "caught" in my head and usually I write it out but there are certain topics I don't feel like writing about so I have to wait until they go away to write about something else. Breakups are a topic I don't see the point in writing about, at best they reflect a bit of nostalgia while also communicating what you see as the difference between being single or being with someone while in the wake of the transition and when the feelings are still vivid. At worst you make a post with an over/under of 3.5 cringes per paragraph and you emasculate yourself to potential future partners reading the post. The other reason I didn't feel compelled to write about this one is because it felt like a flash in the pan, there were good times, and then I stopped it before things got rough, we both exited as if we had ridden a mediocre roller coaster, remarkably un-phased. I bet there are some of you out there who were willing to accept what I just said about the unimportance of it up until you almost by reflex realized how much I had written about something I described as unremarkable which is admittedly suspicious. My reason for this is that it theoretically should have mattered, not only was it my first "college relationship" it also ended a 2 year streak of being single. My expectations were obviously too high but for reference what I expected was pretty similar to the best end of a "streak" I've ever had. I was with Matt and Nathan in St. Louis to see Boston/Styx. As an aside Boston has a disappointing female bass player, disappointing not in categories involving the bass-arts but rather on the "female bass player hotness scale" on which she hits a 4/10. The hottest female bass-user I can think of is the girl from My Bloody Valentine(When she has long hair) or the current touring bassist with Jeff Beck. Letting them be the standard for a 10/10(they're really 9.5's even on their own scale but whatever), having established the reference 10 one can find the constant error which is equal to the difference someone will have between female bassist hotness scale and the general hotness scale, in this case the error is about 2.5. After adjusting for error Boston hits a 1.5 on the hottie bassist scale. It should be noted that the female bass player hotness metric does not factor into the awesome concert scale, is a small constant in the the overall attractiveness scale, and in many cases is inversely proportional on the value as a person scale.
At the time we were at the Science Center and we decided to walk to the zoo, given both the summer heat and the distance between the locations we all ended up incredibly thirsty and fortunately we had decided to pack a cooler filled with ice cold cokes. To this day the best thing I've ever tasted. The point of this being that I would like to someday have a relationship that is at least as enjoyable as cold soda on a particularly hot day. I have no reason to not expect this to happen at some point, so the reason I bring this up is that I don't necessarily think that the universe corrects for fairness. For some reason it really bothers me that we have philosophical schools of thought for so many other minor ideas but there are very few writings referencing views on fairness. I feel like the interpretation of fairness or lack there of is central to identifying the differences between similar ideas such as between Athiest-Existentialism and Deist-Existentialism, a clarification that is important to me. All in all things are going well for me including classes for once as demonstrated by this. feels good man. I'll be around somewhere.
We are the music makers- aphex twin
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