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I haven't posted in a while so I figured I might as well. I've got quite I bit I need to do for school but I also need to slow down and think for a bit so what you're reading is that compromise. I did really well on my stats exam today I think. I've always been aware of it but never really made much of the fact that I am way better at stats than I am at math, stats for me is about as close as I've ever gotten to something coming completely naturally to me. This is only an issue because I find math far more intriguing, and I refuse to take the easy way out. I guess I'll see how it plays out over this semester, I'd really like to at least take Advanced Calc.

Overall though things are great, I am living the life that I told myself was coming a year ago. I'm on a basketball team, I'm making more friends, I'm taking all interesting classes, and I like myself a lot more. All the stuff may sound trite to the layman but it's importance couldn't be over-stated for me. The one thing that still seems to plague me is my relationship dry spell. I don't know why either other than that it always seems to be a part of my winter mood swings. I have platonic companionship and I can easily get physical companionship. I guess the thing I need most from a relationship is the uniqueness of the relationship, the special role you get to play in someones else's life, a key role. The biggest frustration I have with being single is that I really feel like I would be great at filling that key role. Having someone to care about and implicitly another reason to get up in the morning would be great. Getting to make someone you care deeply about happy all the time sounds good too. I'm not too worried about it, when someone I'm into does come around the world isn't going to split open. I'm not even going to necessarily be way happier, just a different kind of happy. I enjoy every moment I get to be alive and that means taking advantage of not being tied to anyone and creating happiness out of it.

I would kind of like to write about this weekend but my math hw beckons. Thanks for sacrificing your free time to read my thoughts. Seriously.

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